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Meanwhile I’m too autistic to tell when they AREN’T happening, and just keep talking until somebody respectfully tells me to shut up an take my turn.

https://youtu.be/K3x8Tm7urfk?si=-_GUHpbEJN0BPash

I don’t have any job, since I’m disabled and just live off government disability benefits. For hobbies though, I still don’t get much into anything tech related. I do cooking and sometimes attempt writing. Unless tinkering with Linux a tiny bit sometimes counts as tech.

An MMO called Mabinogi, but only because it’s literally designed to suck as much time and money away from you as possible without you noticing. Steam says I’m nearing 5,000 hours, but more than half my playtime was from before it was on steam, so it’s probably closer to 12,000 to 13,000 hours. I haven’t even reached the end game yet.

At this point, I don’t really play it anymore. I think from now on I need to start avoiding games that are gonna absorb that much of my time for so little progress. Definitely wasn’t mentally healthy because I wasn’t even enjoying myself a good way in, I was just addicted.

Only to view NSFW images when I really don’t have any other option. I don’t have an account anymore though so usually it’s not worth the trouble. Lemmy really just doesn’t have the diversity reddit did with that yet.

The anticheat for a game I liked to play with my wife didn’t work on Linux and playing in a VM barely worked due to the game’s outdated spaghetti code. It was more important to me at the time because the game was how I met her and at the time we weren’t dating yet, she was just a friend I was crushing on big time, enough to reinstall windows for her.

We don’t even really play it anymore, so maybe I’ll switch back to Linux. I still got mint installed on dual boot, just never thought about starting it up until now. I always did like how a couple of terminal commands could fix like, 99% of issues whereas windows says “Noooo… You have to reinstall me for the 20,000th time! It’s the only way!”

I have schizoaffective disorder, so I’ve had a lot of “spiritual” experiences, some I still can’t totally shake off how real they felt despite being well medicated for years.

I once met a god in my dreams. He never spoke to me, but I could sense what he wanted to say. He told me I was actually two people, one was destined to destroy the world, the other was me, who was actually the creator of the world. Apparently I was asleep and all of reality was just my dream, and this other person inside of me was destined to wake me up, ending existence as we know it.

I also had a shadow woman with glowing green eyes who would show up constantly (while I was awake this time.) I thought she was also a god, who was in love with me. That’s been one of the harder ones to shake off. I met somebody who claimed to be psychic a few years ago who described the shadow woman exactly as I remembered her. He claimed she was protecting me. That was unsettling, because I’d not mentioned her to him even once.

Besides that I used to see ghosts a lot before I was on my meds. Most of those aren’t very interesting though. Just a person or animal who wasn’t supposed to be there and nobody else could see.

My wife is 12 years older than me. I once pretended not to know what VHSes were just to fuck with her.